Wow I cant believe its 8 months since I returned from Christmas 2010 on Vancouver Island...and no blog!

The countdown and leadup to Christmas absorbed my soul, Christmas, a magical time, a time when dreams and wishes come true!

A time to celebrate with the one you love!

and love him I do..with all my heart

I had an amazing time there, but leaving was difficult and under the circumstances extremely painful.

What happens now?..and what do i do to get through the days not knowing when we will be together again.

perhaps i will write more of this trip someday, but for now some pics..

Here I am back home.......

Countdown!!!!

It is now 122 days, 18 hours 46 mins and the seconds are ticking away till ileave!!

I return yet again..its been 4 years!!..and now 2010

Well the big countdown for me has begun, Yes I am returning!!!..to Beautiful Vancouver Island and more importantly to the love of my life..:)..seems so far away but close enough now to count the days away.. A Christmas away from home and family is one thing i never thought i would want but to experience a hopefully white one (friggin freezn)..and to share it with the man i love is a dream come true. To all those i love at home..man, enjoy that summer sun and hot Christmas, I will be thinking of you all..xo..I plan on being there by the 5th dec..so my countdown is to the beginning of Dec, yeeeehaaaaaaaaa, how many more sleeps?..193....I am sooooo excited!! BIG plans for Christmas and I havent felt so happy for a very long time!!

Wow

its now 8 months later!...what can I say..not that I didnt want to write about my trip, was so much anticipation leading up to it and i put everything I had into this trip and focussed on it with everything I had to make being away from the man I love easier to bear and easier to get me through the time when we would be together again. The leadup to Christmas was spectacular, very exciting, and being with Harry again was the best feeling, we had so much fun together getting ready for the big day.Christmas wasn't quite as I had imagined it would be ... for one thing, no snow!! but despite that I had the most amazing time. Leaving again, leaving behind the man I love so much was really difficult and not knowing when i would see him again or when my ultimate goal would come to fruition was even more difficult........since i have been back life has gone on and i surround myself with work and take on more and more to try and keep myself occupied so i don't dwell on things too much..I know what I want and I wait...I wait for something that is out of my control, some kind of furry little thing called ducks, not sure i put all my faith in relying on birds tho but somehow it must be important,.just sorry things did not work out the way i expected this trip and Im really unsure why, or how it effects my plans for the future. i have come to the conclusion that one should not "PLAN" or pin their hopes on anything unless you are prepared for a fall, but i know its just a matter of timing, perfect timing if there ever is a perfect time Im not sure but I certainly hope so.

October 2011

Not a lot of action here, hoping i can come back and finish this off someday..but for now....The Universe must have some other plans for me I think...i will be back when i have some exciting news and this is not so difficult for me to blog about..

Longbeach

Back to Longbeach...was a little cool today, and pretty windy, we did a quick scout around on the beach and came across a little tipi (TEEPEE) type shelter which we snuggled in........ohlala......took some pics, and the day seemed to be going so well too, with harrybear writing romantic messages for me in the sand, i thought that was really special........then he hit me in the head with a gatorade bottle!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nanaimo waterfront

I spent a lot of time hanging around the waterfront on this visit, frequenting the delightful little shops that weave their way along the path, watching the indians at work on their latest piece of art, or just sitting on the grass sipping a coke purchased from my hippy dippy van, (yes its still there),It was here that I wrote all my postcards to send back home, here that i read books and daydreamed about a life that I wish would just stand still, then off to the lacrosse arena to watch and wait for Harrybear, the arena is gone now which is sad.........anyway its a busy place with people bustling about, children playing, old people wandering slowly along, young people, lovers.......and sometimes a live band which i enjoyed listening too. The spirit bear pictured has become very special to me, ihave a few in my bear collection now and also a dvd which i really enjoy........looking at this picture makes me remember the great little icecream store and trollers fish and chips.....mmmmmm

Lacrosse

We spent a lot of time with lacrosse....was good to watch harry doing something with so much passion, something he loves to do....a few good blues, lots of swearing, and seeing harrybear kicked out of the game was funny.....oops sorry harry

Fisgard Lighthouse

The first lighTthouse on Canada's west coast is still in operation! There hasn't been a keeper here since the light was automated in 1929, but every year many thousands of visitors step inside a real l9th century light, and capture some of the feeling of ships wrecked and lives saved.


Built by the British in 1860, when Vancouver Island was not yet part of Canada, Fisgard's red brick house and white tower has stood faithfully at the entrance to Esquimalt harbour. Once a beacon for the British Royal Navy's Pacific Squadron, today Fisgard still marks home base for the Royal Canadian Navy.


Inside the building are two floors of exhibits, dealing with shipwrecks, storms, far- flung lights, and the everyday working equipment of the light keeper a century ago. Right next to the tower stirs on the second floor, a specially-made video evokes the loneliness and isolation that was the lot of the l9th century keeper.
I just loved it here..being inside you seemed to lose track of time....and it was almost like you were taken back in time and were waiting for your ship to come in....The sense of isolation is definately there, you can just feel it, hard to imagine waiting and waiting ...must have been a very lonely life..